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Sunday, June 26, 2011, 11:19 PM
Beat the sunrise .
what is the use of having so much friends, when I want to find someone to talk to I cannot even find one? I want them to sympathize with me, i want them to pity me, i want them to feel sorry for me, i want them to talk to me, i want them to miss me, i want to them to not be able to leave without me. I must be crazy.i just want to find some one to talk to. if you don't want to talk to me you can just tell me, i will not blame you. i just don't like you plainly ignoring me. i prefer the truth then doing things around the bushes. Why do you have to be like that? I hate to just keep falling in love. Especially with someone that is friend of your friend and you do not want to hurt that guy and if I start to be close to her, it will become very awkward and in the end i will not be able to be friends with her. one day i will also have to show her this blog post. i am thinking whether i should and should not post. but i shall go with posting. why did i even ask this question. you are older than me and I just do not know how you would feel, i just ... maybe i just should just cut off this feeling. useless feeling. i shall just be a stranger to everyone, a stranger in this world, lonely world, sad world, colorless world,silent world where everyone judge you for who you are. After volunteering at the sundown marathon and see the first runner, i feel that road to being a champion is indeed a lonely one. With no one to run beside you, no one to talk to you, you just have to keep pressing on in the darkness. People are watching you from afar, waiting for you to fall then they come in and clear you away. But if you manage to become a champion, what awaits you is glory. One of the runner asked me, why did she sign up for this race? i didn't know what to answer her. Why did everyone came into this race? Challenge themselves? For that glory? To show off to other people? why ? i wonder. |