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Friday, March 18, 2011, 12:24 AM
What should i do ?
i don't know . maybe i shouldn't care so much . maybe i shouldn't talk to you . but actually i am not that bad one . what is happening to me ? i have another person living inside me . controlling me . sometimes even surfacing out . sometimes i act this way, sometimes i act that way . i am so confused . should i do this should i do that ? i want to go out with you, i want to see you . but i just scared everything might surface again . i know i still love you . but everything i have done to hurt you, i pay back many times to myself . double edge sword or what they call i don't know . hate myself for hurting you . but actually i don;t know . i think is i am jealous . i want you so much i lose myself. i hate myself for feeling that way .i know a lot of people tell me , just forget you . but how ? someone tell me , maybe you just kill me ? just end my life . then people will say oh you think die worth it ? then what to do ? hais .sufferings . i know i can't compare to japan but yea . Japan. HOPE . just hope . i know there is nothing you can do . but you all can do one thing call hope . i just don't know what to do . i have lost hope already . she already removed my hope . you know what, maybe i can still hope . just have to squeeze out . i miss you . :/ |